WE JUST DON'T KNOW IT ALL...AT LEAST NOT JUST YET.

I HAVE TO BELIEVE THAT GOD IS GOOD...
SCRATCH THAT, I DO NOT 'HAVE TO',
RATHER I 'CHOOSE TO' BELIEVE THAT GOD IS GOOD.

I CANNOT EXPLAIN THE SIMPLE THINGS...
I CANNOT EXPLAIN AIR. THE ONE THING I SURVIVE ON DAILY,
MY ONLY NECESSARY ADDICTION.

FOR THE SIMPLE REASON THAT; I HAVE NO EXPLANATION AS TO MY ENTITLEMENT TO 'AIR'
I MUST BELIEVE IN A BIGGER POWER,
SOMEONE BIGGER MUST EXIST.
THUS MY FAITH...

ITS PRETTY HARD TO UNDERSTAND,
SCRATCH THAT, ITS IMPOSSIBLE TO UNDERSTAND EVERYTHING,
I MEAN I'LL NEVER UNDERSTAND WHY INNOCENT PEOPLE GET INJUSTICE,
OR WRAP MY BRAIN AROUND WHY SOME SICKNESS EVEN EXIST.
ALL I HAVE IS BELIEF... BELIEF IN SOME GREATER PURPOSE,
THAT A BIGGER BEING IS IN CONTROL.
HENCE MY FAITH...

I CHOOSE TO BELIEVE I WAS CREATED, AND THAT THE CREATOR IS GOOD.
I CHOOSE TO BELIEVE THERE IS A PURPOSE FOR EVERY ACTION.
I CHOOSE TO BELIEVE IN A HIGHER POWER,TO BIG FOR THE HUMAN MIND TO COMPLETELY CONCEIVE.


I WANT TO BELIEVE ITS NOT ALL MARE...
I REFUSE TO ACCEPT AN EXISTENCE WITH FEAR OF ALL THE UNKNOWNS.
I ADMIT, SOMETIMES ALL I KNOW IS FEAR, COS HOPE SOMETIMES SEEMS SO MARE.
BUT TO WHAT GAIN, IF ALL MY DAYS I LIVE IN FEAR?

I LIKE TO BELIEVE, THAT JUST MAYBE THERE IS SOME GOOD Vs BAD BATTLE (this gives some hope)
AND THAT MAYBE JUST MAYBE LIKE GAME CHARACTERS WE FIGHT TO SURVIVE..
I HATE TO BELIEVE DESTINY IS FIXED
I LIKE TO BELIEVE 'WE JUST DONT KNOW IT ALL..AT LEAST NOT JUST YET'.

scratch the AA LOL

inspired by 'i smile' - Kirk Franklin

we interact with people every now and then,
more often than not these people help me mold my perspective of life.
welcome to my brain..... phew

Every night before i sleep, i am subconsciously happy.
subconsciously.. because i may not be visually wearing this grin

however, the promise of hope keeps me going.

Anything and everything can happen in 1 sec,
and just maybe..this time what happens would turn out for my own good..
if it doesn't, then oh well "when there is life there is hope" in it?

Too many sad people, why join them?
I could choose to wear gloom,cos things aren't always that rosy here either,
but of what good would that be?

When I have to talk to a person, and he/she stares at me with a face like this

he/she sure as hell gets some negativity across to me,
he/she makes my smile bend.

positivity is the way forward people!
results in a win/win situation (no transfer of negativity)
this doesn't mean you should go about with the smiley grin (as that is not normal and it might get you checked in a mental facility)
but 'try to be that jolly good fellow' is what i preach,

Bad things happen, but its a win/win if you start believing good things can come out of negative situations... all starts with the mind.

THE GOOD WIFE

You see what you want to see, and honestly she doesnt really care what you assume.

you see an evil man...
i see a good wife standing beside that man.
he has his demons, oh yes! he does.
doesn't stop her from loving her man and chastising him the best way she knows how.

you the observer, watching from a distance cant see progress as much as you'll like.
he is condemed in your sight, and every now and then you wonder why..:s
why a good woman (beauty) would give her heart to a 'BAD,BAD' man (the beast).

love is the strongest force i have known.
it can make you compromise, not necessarily your soul
but it'll make a sane woman look foolish
it'll allow kindness be misinterpreted for stupid.

everyday she watches her mans wall crash
everyday some victory you know nothing of occurs.
you see a wolf, she sees a scared dog getting tamed.
love is all the definitions including;stupid

when you throw stones at him and call him names
she'll stick closer to him.
rather be down with the man of her dreams,
than be up, yet feel lonely in a world full of familiar faces.

love is blind and blind love is dangerous.
her love for her man is not dangerous
he respects her but terrorisies you.lol
he knows a good woman prays each day for his soul.

i know this woman, i love this woman.
i wrote this while trying to figure out why 'BAD BAD' men survive.
and i realised for some, some loved one keeps praying.....



. . . A Word of PRAYER changes EVERYTHING . . . #TYGA

ALL THE POWER I HAD TO LOVE YOU.........

its realer than it actually feels/looks
all the things we take for granted might hunt us someday
theres actually fire on this mountain top and its funny how no one is panicking (me included)
the ones who have power think its all about gaining more power
using power to gain more power but doing absolutely nothing other than selfish deeds with power.
you draining your power source,
they make you who you are, you gain strength from your people
the ones you treat like dirt.
all the power i had to love you.... all gone
kept fading away.
you have deceived me far too many times
every time i gave another chance i thought you'll be smart enough to change
i really hope you change this time.

i'm not alone, most of us have no faith in you
we gain strength in numbers..
sooner or later more would realize
this is our pride, we handed it to you
trusted you with everything, yet we are treated like slaves in our own land,
our inheritance..
well this is all we have.
for the sake of peace i hope for CHANGE.

Hank Moody, the Runkles and Ed Westwick (Chuck bass)

La Petite Mort. But i call it :- The Break Up; episode 12, season 2 Californication.......

Charlie Runkle and the porn star Daisy had break up sex that lasted literally only 2 seconds. Define that as the Perfect breakup.
2 seconds??? in 2 seconds, count 1,2 GBAM! shit was over! dead! no revival. 2 seconds O_O?
his d*&k gave up in 2 seconds.. it was like "nah mehn aint feeling this no more" lol.

charlie and marcy


i find the Charlie Runkle and Marcy Runkle love story Sweet, unlike the Hank Moody and karen (girlfriend) love <----- lead characters. They can start their very own series and call it "The Stupidity Of Love".. round and round circles, i get so dizzy, whats next already? i suppose season 3 and 4 would say. supposed grown ups acting like 19 year olds.. thats not the beauty of love is it? hope not! then what do i know about love right? marry her already and end this series.

hank and karen



p.s you should see chuck bass, ed westwicks' character in season 3 :D (one love to the gay community, we dont discriminate ;))

focus on boobs not Ed Westwick .

LUCKY BASTARDS

who is to say that if i try today i'll suceed?

the options still remain yay/nay.

i dont know if i'll make it if i try,

the fact that i know luck exist makes me lazy at times.

before i start every new thing, am scared of the risk,

ask myself the unknown- would it pay at the end?

some lucky bastard would try without stress, effortlessly,

and at the end ripp every benefit.

sounds funny, its freaking heartrecking

grahh, blehhhhh, yuckkkkkkkk.

if luck is on my side, then "am that lucky bastard :)".

and if luck aint by my side.....

then my "middle fingers" goes out to luck.

p.s if luck is GOD i take it all back.

and p.s- i aint hating on lucky bastards, share your joy ;).

THOUGHT

No 2 ways about it!

We all are going to die, some soon, some later.

We all hope for later than soon, well except for some other few *with their own reasons*

Ultimate is where u go to after death.

If there is really hell or a heaven depends on your belief.

We can't all be wrong, somebody is right, yeh?

Then again we all believe we are right.

If life is a puzzle! Its a gad damn hard puzzle.

Some people say they know the secret to getting through life easy!

Said its in a book.

Heard the book is cheap, so why haven't we all read it?

Back to my point.

We all gonna die someday, at least be happy before you die, and go to a place we are/not sure of.

Now I get why many people act the way they do.

Life is a real hard puzzle.

Welcome me to reality.

RED TREE'S

Nneka was born two days before valentines day, japari was born a day before the D day, and all the girls bearing 'Val' as names were born on the D day when st valentines decided he had too much money to throw away on the street! Wonder why I haven't heard any boys excited about having their birthdays close to the D day*wondering*...oh well.
Seriously I love the spirit, the air that day brings. That said, I hate that most girls believe they must go all red. Red lipstick, red bag, bra ,pant , dress , shoes..end up looking like a 'red Christmas tree' (never seen one of those but I swear its well depicted in the "red ladies").
My best valentines was in d year 2008 (taking a moment to reminisce hmmm) oh well.
If you have love treat it good and sweet,if u get val'd good for you,if you don't he / she better come up with a good enough explanation.
If you don't have love, treat yourself to something special and who knows one of those secret admirers might become useful.
That said, have fun and use a condom.
X0x0

SOCCER

How to start this piece is working up my brain. I've decided on what the write up is about though,choose soccer!.lol.
Meanwhile, between this is just a way to practice the art of writing. I hate reading,so can't learn from reading other books or write ups;I like to think I haven't found the right books but truth be told,I've been too lazy to look for the "right ones". And another truth is I'd kinda rather buy new jeans with the money *puppy eyes + embarassed*. Telling self to change hasn't worked out fine,and am fully aware that writing may not help either but what the heck.
Now,back to topic SOCCER. I know little or nothing about this sport, a list of what I do know would read:
1)Most males and some females included behave like its a drug which they addicted to,like it pumps adrealine down their veins. I've heard people have killed in the name of football (hear say).I know though, that some people have fasted for and only for this cause "that the team they support wins".smh*
2)It involves using only the leg to kick the ball
3)Fouls, sidekicks,red/yellow cards are some kind of purnishements giving to offenders, the offence defines the penalty
4)A coach and refree is involved (like duhh!!)
5)Seasonal tournaments like world cup, nations cup take place. often and
6)Clubs: Realmadrid,arsenal(gunners),manchester united(man u), chelsea(the blues) etc.are clubs...
Forgive me if I didn't mention your club. Oh well *sigh* enough of what I know, I actually find the game intresting I mean when you see the faces of this fans and supporters its like there's this rush. The excitement when the game begins, expectant faces, the fear mixed with joy..omG when you in the midst of these crowd you have the same emorush(emotion rush), even when you understand little about what's going on.lol.
Am writing this and I swear I feel the excitement. I was an arsenal fan, my reasons for joining the club ehmmm??
-i loved the name "arsenal"
-found out they had fine boys in the team.
-the fans had so much "spirit" even when the team played like ass!
Yeah, never understood the game,up until now I have absolutely no idea what goes on, I know that if a keeper let's the ball into the post(net) then "its a goal" and one point is added to the team that shoots.
Now am tired of writingbut before I stop I should say, I was loyal to the team (arsenal) even when they were bent on messing up, but it reached a point I just couldn't take it anymore, so I left the team.so now I rep the BLUES.
Its chelsea baybee..<3*

SAVE THE NURSES, SAVE THE CHILD.

Everyday we get around blaming one head for our nations (many) problems,we blame the government for the low standard of our living,we pity ourselves. Especially some of us that can't afford to live the extravagant lives of the "so called" high and mighty.
I know we hear this a lot,but really it really does start with you,save yourself save the nation(I do not mean be greedy),in other words..."Start with the guy/lady in the mirror"
Wonder why the tittle reads save the nurse save lives,this is because you won't imagine the number of people in this our dear country that have left so soon to eternity because the nurses couldn't care less.am not very learned on this issue or on the trainings for nurses in this contry ,but I remember in primary school,when our teachers asked everyone in class one by one what we wanted to be when we we're all grown,most of us girls wanted to be nurses..
My point being we saw honour in those uniforms,we saw caring people,the ones who saved the lives of the sick before the doctors came around to preserve it,they were the ones who offered emotional healing to patients,who never gave up on a life even when it seemed far gone. at least thats how the movies made them seem...can't say the same of the reality of this country though.
I lost a close, the closest (none blood related) family I had to the carelessness of nurses,I cried when I saw their actions,they seemed more like heartless logs of wood than human beings,they seemed soulless,cared more about big brother series on tv than my brother who apparently needed surgery,they FORGOT to call the doctors,the doctors found us themselves when they came around checking other patients,I guess they came by pretty late!
Kevin won the bigbrother series,we all felt good for our country,my brother would have been here to feel that joy too,had the nurses done their jobs
I know am not alone,we are so many that have shed tears(that could have been prevented) and had the course of our lives changed for ever,driven into great depression,questioned all sanity and suffered irreplaceable loss. all because a nurse was less of a human being than she could have been.
I know your salaries may not be as much as you rightly deserve,but it starts with you,look in the mirror people,make a change!
God bless.