NoBody Test Me!

So she's talking, talking about how she gained her victory over all them spiritual stuff, and am thinking "good for you! Of late been noticing my luck has been off balance" F*#k that.

Dropping all my troubles at my redeemers feet, nobody test me *MI's voice*. Don't touch my star, don't even stare at my skys, its upwards from henceforth.

On the cross, at his feet, I laid all my crap.

ITS ALRIGHT.

Why do people die before we realize?

But death aint the end...

Death seems to have lost its victory,

Its a door to a better place.

Oh death! Where the hell is your sting?

she a Ho', a sexy Ho'

If Israel is female
Then she's the luckiest of her kind,
Her story depicts a versatile woman.
But at the end I'll still describe her as strong and fierce.
She's seen it all. Pain, much suffering, endured harsh treatment etc.
Exiled from her own territory, forced to find comfort in the arms of another.
Gutters, splendor she knows it all
Ups and downs, riches and poverty, royalty and slavery.
Its not an adventure to her, its what she calls life.
in modern time I'll call her slut.
For she runs off with men that are not her own.. Whether for greed or with reason, I don't know.
Forsaking the groom who paid a price for her.
But even as a slut she earns no disrespect, her pride has never been shaken. She knows her rights.
Her man would always be there when she comes home. For she is the only bride deemed fit in his eye.
The love between Israel and her God.
Is it true love?

Before its too Late by goo goo dolls

wondered through fiction to look for the truth
Buried beneath all the lies
And I stood at a distance
To feel who you are
Hiding myself in your eyes

And hold on before it's too late
Until we leave this behind
Don't fall just be who you are
It's all that we need in our lives

And the risk that might break you
Is the one that would save
A life you dont live is still lost
So stand on the edge with me
Hold back your fear and see
Nothing is real til it's gone

And hold on before its too late
Until we leave this behind
Don't fall just be who you are
It's all that we need in our lives

So live like you mean it
Love til you feel it
It's all that we need in our lives
So stand on the edge with me
Hold back your fear and see
Nothing is real til it's gone

Hold on before its too late
Until we leave this behind
Don't fall just be who you are
It's all that we need in our lives

Hold on before its too late
Until we leave this behind
Don't fall just be who you are
It's all that we need in our lives

It's all that we need in our lives
It's all that I need in my life
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His Plan.

From my daily bread...at the very time I needed to hear it the most...

February 13th 2010...Saturday. First time I picked up my bible after a very long while.
didn't get the answer to the question I asked, I got the bigger picture.
Didn't get details of what the bigger picture was,just the awareness that it exist.
That's kinda enough for now.

Un edited,just the way it read...if you Christian and you want to follow up the passage,I read from Job 1 : 13-22; 42:12-17. And now the write up that followed;

Hymn writer William Cowper has beautifully expressed the unexplained workings of an all-wise and all-powerful God. He wrote: "God moves in a mysterious way His wonders to perform; He plants His footsteps in the sea, and rides upon the storm."

From our limited point of view,it often appears that everything is out of control. The heavenly Father, however, wants His children to trust Him even when they cannot understand Him.

While Michaelangelo was working on St. Peter's cathedral, (I love these story.) Other men working on the building criticised him. The great artist responded, " Even if I were able to make my plans and ideas clear to you - which I am not - I am not obliged to do so. I must ask you to do your best to help me, and when the work is complete the conception will be better understood." History has confirmed that he was right

Those who found fault with his work dis. So out of ignorance. Unable to understand what was in the mind of the artist, they couldn't see the whole picture.

Those who go through the deep waters of trials, afflictions or diversity often cannot understand what God is doing. But God knows, and we must trust him for the outcome.

Sorry am getting all "Christian nd religious" on you . Just wanted to share what helped out today.

Blind unbelief is sure to err,
And scan his work in vain,
God is his own interpreter,
And he will make it plain. - cowper

Gravity

I'll rather stay down with your memories
Than face ...
(Had to put gravity by sara bareille on repeat) only way I can write and feel at the same time...am beginning to sound psychotic...
I truelly am, really depressed..am running out of excuses,addictions, and things to keep my mind moving..on the look out for next addiction.
Yesterday! depressed,sad and angry was the picture I had on my face..paste my picture besides the definition of sad it'll fit so right.
Am not okay! Thank you..totally not fine..
At least I can accept that,although I accepted this fact a bit 3 months back the space between then and now felt like one day between yesterday same feeling now.(feels like a very long sentence).
I'll just write down the lines that defines my state now.
-something always brings me back to you,still feel you here till the moment am gone
-u hold me without touch,keep me without chains.
-i thought that I was strong,but you touch me for a little while and all my ...is gone.
-i leave here on my knees as I try to make u see that u r everything I think I need here on the ground
-u neither friend or foe though I can't let u go...one thing I know is that u keep keeping me down...
-something always brings me back to you and never takes to long.