Dear Josh, I'm beginning to understand why we met.
Life is what life is and I had to learn through you that good people didn't go extinct.
You told me not to change, it's hard to stay nice,  humans can be mean, very mean.

Life went on after you left...
I've met all sorts of people, its hard to not be naive, its hard to just jugde from the first glance,
And its impossible to know how the story ends from the beginning...
It always starts off fine then I'm 'WOWED' oh well!
People are amazing :)

Naive as I was, you never took advantage,
You weren't perfect but I saw you try,
That you tried made the difference.
You were as confused as I am about the world and its people,
You were also strong enough to know there was hope.
I hope you know, me finding you was me finding hope.

You didn't come and vanish... You made an impact, memories to last.

I've come to understand, that to live sane is to understand there's a purpose for every thing.
Its okay that you're gone, different phase. Spirits never die that's consoling :)..
You were a good man, I now know its not easy to stay good, but even with all your trials you gave it a try...
Hey! See where it got you, at least it got you a name.
A good name.

I know you're okay, I know you're fine. You owe me nothing, you were a young man who deserved peace.

To the great beyond my best friend, my unofficial ex.. I know you smile, my friend lives on. And you know? Just for that I smile back too...
I'll keep trying josh, I won't change.
I miss you Josh.

Hope, faith and love

Does it hurt? Yes! Now and then,
right now not at all
Wounds heal, you shouldn't run from the memories
After a while scars can make you smile,
The lessons they taught, the future they paved.

Do I hurt? When it hurts I cry,
Not immune to pain, I have thick skin, I'm human.
Do I forget? Nope.
But do I forgive?  Yup.
Lifes to short to hold a grudge
If I must live at least let me live in peace.
Hate is poison in ones soul
Ewww slowly dieing, a painful way to die.

Do I love you? Yes with all my heart.
Do I understand why you'll hurt me? Probably never will.
The sooner we understand not all questions would be answered the better.
I don't really care that you can be evil at times
I can be evil at times too..
But for the grace of God where would I be?

When my wounds heal
When I see my scars.
I won't remember the evil I saw,
I'll remember why I love you.
I hear love keeps no record of wrong.
Hope, faith and love.
The greatest really is Love...

We Rise

I am not where I want to be
But I'm en route destination..
Does result justify all means?
The long,hard and honest path or short cuts,
Which is appropriate? Which is my choice?

Does pain make one stronger,
Still must I go through the pain?
And why compare man to steel?
Steel goes through the heat, must man do the same?

Tell me a story, a story of a man
How a man got to his destination
Yet endured no pain.
"its not if a man is king, but how he wears the crown"

Grateful for another day.
Still breathing, so then I still have purpose.
Today my choice would tell
What the future holds for me

Nothing is as certain as rock
But I pave my way,
The power of my actions,
I am a god
I make my own way.

To go through the long honest route
And endure, or
Go the other route and seat on the throne in a short while.
I've heard patience makes one stronger,
Patience is a battle with ones self,
Who wins at the end?

Why compare man to steel?
The Spirit of man lives forever,
Steel has no soul.
But if everything has purpose, what is its purpose?
Perhaps to tell a story. Who knows.....

There is purpose in our pain.
"after the fire has tested me,I will come out as gold"
From the ashes... We rise.

MORALITY

Its below the balance. I speak of morality.
we've strayed away, forgotten the lessons once taught by the elders
forgotten the voice of our conscience.
We think old people equals old mind
we are blind, we assume they know nothing of this century,
things have changed, thats our excuse.
but nothing is new under the sun. if u think of it from that perspective....
it becomes - different scene, same problem, same basic technique (or advanced technique).
the truth is the truth, it would never change
history repeats itself, learn from the wise
i could save myself a lot of trouble if I'll just listen.


ask self : whose voice am i listening to? note that you are listening to someone, theres always a voice.

Sister

How can i not call you sister
How can i not hurt when you hurt?
How can i not care and
why wont i walk a mile in your shoe,
to know where it hurts...
why haven't i apologized?
why do i hold a grudge, bearing a cross..
isn't it easier to forgive?
the world is bad , the world is terrible
thats the more reasons as to why i need you.
i Loved you once, I'll love you again
let me apologize for the both of us
cos it hurts to see you just walk away.

i pretend i am strong,
its the lie i tell myself
if Love is weakness, then for Love i am a slave.
i say a prayer for you,
for once upon a time we were friends
i'm ready to go back, to risk it, being hurt again
I'll be smarter, but a risk I'm willing to take.
its really sad to see you just walk away.

i still love you, so i always say a prayer for you
" Dear Lord, i love her, im no better than she is
and im sure you love me so i know you love her too..
pls bless her dear Lord, in your hands i commit my dear friend"
See, i always smile when you walk into the room
always happy to see you, just till you walk away....

kerions outtro

I refuse to be another black statistic
A black man who can wine and dine in the sin of the world and still be considered a christian
I plan on being great
I care not to be less
 I refuse to wear a bar-code across my chest
I refuse to let a black tee or throwback jersey define me
I refuse to let my children witness divorce
Or make mature decisions in court
I refuse to grow up carrying the generational curse
I refuse to feel the need to curse in my verse
I hate being automatically looked at when someone asks can anyone rap
I wanna be a black man that can flip it from urban to corporate measures
A black man who doesn't gain knowledge from the world for his own pleasures
 A black man who reps Christ to the fullest with no regrets
My only regret is the stigma that many black statistics in the past have set
Like going to jail, bragging about bail, leaving our kids, cussing at church,
married and you still flirt, no father present at birth
Animosity within the ministers of our church
I refuse to let my people be viewed as temporary
I plan on planting a seed not for the moment but for one thats legendary
As for statistics
My father broke the mode
And i feel its my job for the next generation to continue in it
 Because i refuse to be another black statistic.


from the album Hero, by kirk Franklin.

Most times its with the best of intentions we do what we do,
Sometimes actions get misinterpreted.
You do not listen to what I'm saying,
Instead you hear what you assume i am saying
That’s when we lose focus....
Wondering, trying to understand "who i think i am to judge"

In need of forgiveness
You need to be forgiven
Crimes against humanity, crimes against my brother.
How do you make it in this world without being cold,
At least just once....

Truth could hurt, put that in mind.
Also,  put in mind, my  truth isn't necessarily reality
Just what I see from my point of view
Don’t mean to offend you,
You see, I may be wrong, but i may be right

If what I say aligns with the truth you already know
I.e. your present reality
Then I did my brother well
Hopefully now you can tell, it’s not only you who sees the real you
I am your friend and i see it too

So again I may be wrong, i may be right
But if I don’t say my observations
Isn’t that a crime to a loved one?
Should I leave you in denial?
Then haven’t I robbed you of freedom
For i have left a friend in denial,
Allowed you believe illusions, mirages, all lies.

Please! Forgive me if i am wrong
But what if I am right?

the gift of christmas

he knows the story behind every scar

he keeps record of my hair growth

down to the last strand, he knows

he knows about every tear drop,

not just the story behind the tear

but the hurt and pain , the reason for the tear.

every breath, till my life support is cut off

he'll know.

its not his duty, infact am just a creation

but he loved me soo much. he sacrificed his best for me

though i did not love him and couldnt care less if he came or not

he still felt the need to try to save me.

i,  the one that didnt love him infact i hated him

hated him for reasons i do cant point out (no reason at all)

for as history would tell, he was just a good man

a very good man, he had no crime

why did i hate good? i stop to think.

christmas is a gift to all men, women, children 


not considering race, tribe, religion or age


christmas is a gift to the world. share love

selah

Dearest Diary.

I really need to start finishing things i start... we really should listen to our mothers,they see the things we cant see. As Nneka would always tell me "u cant see what an old woman like me would see seating on a bench even if a girl like you climbs an iroko tree". laugh my ass off my dearest Nekus is just 23 oh *long hiss*
so my dear people, the year is almost over, december ya"ll halleluyah! Todays post is about 2 good things that happened today

1) my pastors sermon 
2) my 50000 naira prize money :D

My Pastors sermon

Church today was good as usual,  i came in a tiny bitty late, so missed the praise but uhlalalah worship was just taking off.Dare Art Alade was at church today  (for those that dont know, he is a FRESH rnb singer in naija), he was so nice and friendly when we were asked to welcome our neighbors and introduce ourselves, he actually welcomed like 8 people naice yeh?normally peeps just acknowledge 2 neighbours, the right and left ones lol #idoittoo, he was also with a woman,so my excitement is pure #nostringsattached lol. Sha, sha, sermon today was about telling ones self the truth and how you only get transitions when youve been truthful with yourself about 'your own damn self'. makes sense!

The good began when i took it upon myself to be brutally honest, i told myself some bitter truths..choi, pierced my heart my own Gaddamn heart. the list of ugly truths about me ugly so i wont bore with a list out (man must keep secrets hehe)
the truth is very bitter sha, but admittedly very good therapy in the end. it was painful oh, i wont lie, some of us have to admit crazy thing eg i am a liar, a cheat, an abuser, arrogant, unkind, annoying etc admitting it is the 1st step to change and we know that positive change is progress.

hey, am not beating myself out about the painful truth tho and i advice we shouldnt (forgive yourself - Japari told me that) am just loving my past,letting go of it and am looking forward to a better future
FCHW- stands for faith, consistency and Hardwork - @spokenreasons uhhhh i love this guy, he funny but he speaks the truth
watch this pls
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X5gbBIobRKs&feature=g-u

So the bitter truth i found out was that my mum was right all along:(. You know how you never want her to be right?well my mum was right, she would say "karen u never finish what u start, you would clean half way and now stop and watch movie, when would you finish" i didnt know any better then or i refused to change the habit. whichever way, that attitude is a showoff of Lack of consistence and Lazyness , is it not to clean and watch tv in a nice clean room? admitting i am lazy was tough but it'll be worth it in the long run. i'll work at changing conciously now.
the truth is more bitter than the fact that my mum is right, its the fact that the habit followed me into present time. as i have washed half my clothes nd the rest is just staring at me, half of my ward robe is neat the rest is a sight, i cleaned my room but didnt throw the gabbage *closes eye* etc these are the little things, just imagine the huge things ive left half way.

this must stop! this would stop :) consistent karen is the goal. hehe

now my 50000 naira win

yayyyyyyy my christmas is already a miracle.
mehn the recession on my end is fatal, but what do you know,
God has kept me :)
so fusion lifestyle had another shopping event today and i was the lucky winner of 50000 naira shopping cash :) ohlawd! the joy oh jesu babami oh haha almasihu lawd! 
i did my christmas shopping there and there, like what a relief, one thing crossed out off my todo list these year, everybody has a GOOD gift
#iamBlessed
so thats the end of the story..lol

my desire is that all of you get lifted from whereever you are.as the new year creeps in we all need to start telling ourselves some bitter truths, who deserves the truth better than you ;), positive change is progress, we all deserve some LIFTing

#note: whoooooohoooooooooooo 20 days to christmas

letter to my Ex

You are perfectly happy, so dis isn't about you. Its just a letter to u after 2 yrs its to inform you of basically everything u already know.

Oct 24th 2009

Everything felt stupid,
I was sure as hell I was awake in the wrong world
was so sure i was dreaming (absolutely sure)
screamed!cried!shouted!
shouted at Abu shittu (had to put some blame somewhere ..Abu understood thankfully).
I coudn't sleep,
U can't sleep in a dream can u? Inception hehe.

Oct 25th 2009

Drove down to zaria. thought of nothing Nothing...
I couldn't think. literally felt nothing..numb
i just kept reciting the date in my head (24th october 2009)
someone said it happened 5am.

Your mum had the saddest face I've ever seen,
And your dad said the bravest thing a man in that state could say
He lookd at the framed pic on the wall, then asked me to read it,
it said " God is love" .
he then explained that God loves us all nd if he felt it was alright to take u to be with him then it must have been out of love..
love for me, for everybody who mattered in dis case nd love for you .
I'm not sure this speech helped ur dad as much as it helped me.

later that evening, u knw what happened lol x_x
I've always had to kick ass cos of u,
this time I kickd ass for you in ur absence physically.
laughed that night cos I knew somewhere you were laughing too (Sighhhh....)

Oct 26 2009

They put u in the ground,
I swear I wanted to pray u back to life..
My mouth couldn't move.
just felt someone hold me and the sound of someone shouting out to kunle to hold me..
i guess i was falling at that moment even gravity couldnt hold me to the ground (makes sense in my head).
I wasn't sure then but now I know something stopped me from praying you back to life
as much as selfish me wanted you on earth than with God,
my mouth failed to move.
i'll never know if God would have answered..
couldn't even pray in my mind..
i know now that its because
you found peace and it was us you were bothered about..
rather No pain than much pain right? Only u can get that.

U fought battles
Not mare battles,
 Nothing anyone who isn't you could imagine
U were brave..
you were very kind
U found love so u got everything life had to offer and at its best.
God, family , friends and me .
 U were happy that's all that matters
U are are happy that's all that matters now
 To have known You is a blessing..
no matter how short that chapter of my life was
Life goes on...memories are forever...You are forever.

 Life is a Race, I found a friend ...he won his race. till we meet again on the other side.

... Moment when you step back into reality

that moment when you step back into reality
when everything experienced prior to this minute
becomes ' just a figment of imagination'
everything goes and is forgotten, but the feeling
the feeling lingers..
you felt it..it felt really good.

now you pause..trying to remember...

but its gone. puff!! all a dream 

cruel reality snatched it away

all you have left is the feeling

memories of the feeling linger

thats why you smile :)

you'll want it again

you wont deny yourself of a lovely dream while you are asleep

its called rest..dreams can follow.

you've dreamt before, havent you?

so you love a good dream...or dont you?

why limit yourself to a good dream only at night?

i hear people preaching "dream big"

i hope we are all listening?

dreams are escape doors from reality (cool fact)

dream big while you're escaping your reality.

if dreams come true or not is not the issue

im trying to say; we all deserve escape sometimes

dont limit 'escape' to a dream at night

that may or may not come

do it while you can, anytime you can

Martin Luther King God rest his soul

had a dream, and boy that dream was huge

guess what ;  reality didn't stop him from dreaming.

and i know he smiled when obama made that speech

even his wife testified that his dream came true

in this life or the next

maybe a dream would make you smile.

do not delude yourself of your reality

but never, ever stop dreaming.

http://www.americanrhetoric.com/speeches/mlkihaveadream.htm

reminds me of a prior post : http://forjaydaemon.blogspot.com/2011/06/what-i-didnt-say.html

A Note

the words touched me...like they actually reached out to touch me lol..hope you enjoy it as much as i did..
 Lifes Bitter Lessons

 (Emotions)
they say the good die young a good heart younger
a good mind even younger Be brave,
the load should make you stronger
 In pain cry when your heart hungers cos when the tears are gone and faith is restored
the pain lingers no longer
Trust may fail, dont be scared to trust another cos being trustworthy, is the stuff of true brothers The heat may come, think of it as the weather Summer burns,
 but later on its autumn and winter
come whatever, lifes crap and the better
 a heart that believes lasts for forever
Yaaay, screw you second-chance non believers!!!
 If Jesus did the same where wud you be? the gallows or the hangers?
They say trust no man, i dont either i just believe in men,
 and trust their faith to save us
 And in no way should this make me a free thinker Religion is key,
 nonetheless, whichever way, in whatever

  (Business)
The ugly truth is money defines you
makes you and marrs you
money and you is a clearer definition of you
 its in your hands, and thats all there is to you
 how you react to it is a true picasso of you
 Don't cry if people owe you cheat you,
 short you or never pay you
 the only money you truely have is what is on you
 Cos in matters of money,
 alot of expectations would be cut short right before you
 Loved ones would two-time and backstab you
Nothing pays more in life than being you
 Thats something no one can take from you save you.
 Let the quality of your work make you
 Set you as a standard in full view work hard and smart,
be the best in you at all, everything, and what you do.
 Cos thats true pay, your true value
 The best partnerships are between friends same is the easiest to undo
betrayal from a friend is something you cant anticipate nor undo
 Imagine the nigger! after all we've been tru?! Ive said that alot o!!! so why cant you?
and even after all this, it happens again, fresh and brand new and yet we still work with friends, what else can we do? but wait. ask yourself, that cheating bastard right, is that you?

 (Pain)
true pain is heart deep,
to toil and hustle is pain and that road is steep
never forget that it is in pain you shall reap.
Its real pain that puts the value in sleep
Its hard work even for a cheat nothing in this life is free, save for the air you breathe
and the salvation you have and the faith you believe
Pain from a loved one turns up the heat like no other pain,
the venom from a friend is the deepest spit in that pain,
be calm, listen to your heart beat be still, let the anger slip
In life pain you must meet, its the only way to genuinely live
The real people living are those in whose hands pain has suffered defeat
leaving them cheerful, happy and open to all they meet
Bearing scars of the past, walking on cold feet and yet keep a smile so wide
it bores dimples 2 inches deep
Real pain is void of words, its a blank gaze, its unique cos when the heart cries,
only God hears, and that stuff is deep
the tears we shed, most times bring down the bp and the silence after is a burning rollercoaster, no words, u cant speak
loose a loved one and ud know all of this
not just any loved one, someone who everyday you see
If God made pain, then pain we shall meet
its the faith in God we have tru pain, that makes us humble and meek

 (Life)
Live today like it ends today have no regrets,
theres no room for dismay
cos when youre old and your hairs' turned grey
it pays to smile then, smile genuinely
for a time well spent, for the yesterdays
live great, live amazed marvel at men,
at the things God creates live like an explorer,
finding new things each day wandering in foreign land,
helping as we can, lending as much aid
cos this life is not home, and to home we all would return someday
to be asked what we did, how we faired,
how we earned our pay to live well is cheap,
kamarr da gaske to live happy is cheap,
ask a poor man anyday contentment is good living,
its an umbrella in the rain
The best of life is in family, and experiences everyday

 (love) 
Always love, never stop loving
each day we live, trying to make a living
as long as youre living you keep on dying
life is too short to stop loving
its more profitable to live loving than to love living
True love may be the stuff of legends
write your story that one day youd be a legend
If you cant love, why are you living
If you stop loving, whats the point still living?
Life is great, if only spent loving
live for a cause, something more than living
like saving the world, if only for an evening picking up after you,
living a clean living easier for women, men just get by in and in
life is to be enjoyed is a very true saying
enjoy the good and the bad, is the latter part of that saying the part no one mentions,
for fear of negatives reacting
but aint that the truth?
stand up if your denying monkey chase baboon,
therein lies mans origins if its fake its fake, and that not living

 (Work) 
work and give it your best
Your work is no ghetto street contest be thorough,
be sure its the best be worthy of your pay,
buoyant or small cos a worthy seed on fertile ground would fall
have faith in growth, do not gloat
for in the darkest of days, it would keep you afloat
do the same routine, change the style, give it your most
Be the difference, one cuflink at a time,
starting from the little is good growth
hate the wrong, even if you cant in public show
never compromise your heart, thats the only real you yknow
mark your progress, goal to goal
be grateful for your job, never for the payroll
the pay would forever be crap, didnt you know
mo money mo problems,
and problems go deff show

 Keeping Faith in the Thunderstorm...



honoured to have Suleiman Barka Wagamis' (author)  "lifes bitter lessons" on my blog.

WE JUST DON'T KNOW IT ALL...AT LEAST NOT JUST YET.

I HAVE TO BELIEVE THAT GOD IS GOOD...
SCRATCH THAT, I DO NOT 'HAVE TO',
RATHER I 'CHOOSE TO' BELIEVE THAT GOD IS GOOD.

I CANNOT EXPLAIN THE SIMPLE THINGS...
I CANNOT EXPLAIN AIR. THE ONE THING I SURVIVE ON DAILY,
MY ONLY NECESSARY ADDICTION.

FOR THE SIMPLE REASON THAT; I HAVE NO EXPLANATION AS TO MY ENTITLEMENT TO 'AIR'
I MUST BELIEVE IN A BIGGER POWER,
SOMEONE BIGGER MUST EXIST.
THUS MY FAITH...

ITS PRETTY HARD TO UNDERSTAND,
SCRATCH THAT, ITS IMPOSSIBLE TO UNDERSTAND EVERYTHING,
I MEAN I'LL NEVER UNDERSTAND WHY INNOCENT PEOPLE GET INJUSTICE,
OR WRAP MY BRAIN AROUND WHY SOME SICKNESS EVEN EXIST.
ALL I HAVE IS BELIEF... BELIEF IN SOME GREATER PURPOSE,
THAT A BIGGER BEING IS IN CONTROL.
HENCE MY FAITH...

I CHOOSE TO BELIEVE I WAS CREATED, AND THAT THE CREATOR IS GOOD.
I CHOOSE TO BELIEVE THERE IS A PURPOSE FOR EVERY ACTION.
I CHOOSE TO BELIEVE IN A HIGHER POWER,TO BIG FOR THE HUMAN MIND TO COMPLETELY CONCEIVE.


I WANT TO BELIEVE ITS NOT ALL MARE...
I REFUSE TO ACCEPT AN EXISTENCE WITH FEAR OF ALL THE UNKNOWNS.
I ADMIT, SOMETIMES ALL I KNOW IS FEAR, COS HOPE SOMETIMES SEEMS SO MARE.
BUT TO WHAT GAIN, IF ALL MY DAYS I LIVE IN FEAR?

I LIKE TO BELIEVE, THAT JUST MAYBE THERE IS SOME GOOD Vs BAD BATTLE (this gives some hope)
AND THAT MAYBE JUST MAYBE LIKE GAME CHARACTERS WE FIGHT TO SURVIVE..
I HATE TO BELIEVE DESTINY IS FIXED
I LIKE TO BELIEVE 'WE JUST DONT KNOW IT ALL..AT LEAST NOT JUST YET'.

scratch the AA LOL

inspired by 'i smile' - Kirk Franklin

we interact with people every now and then,
more often than not these people help me mold my perspective of life.
welcome to my brain..... phew

Every night before i sleep, i am subconsciously happy.
subconsciously.. because i may not be visually wearing this grin

however, the promise of hope keeps me going.

Anything and everything can happen in 1 sec,
and just maybe..this time what happens would turn out for my own good..
if it doesn't, then oh well "when there is life there is hope" in it?

Too many sad people, why join them?
I could choose to wear gloom,cos things aren't always that rosy here either,
but of what good would that be?

When I have to talk to a person, and he/she stares at me with a face like this

he/she sure as hell gets some negativity across to me,
he/she makes my smile bend.

positivity is the way forward people!
results in a win/win situation (no transfer of negativity)
this doesn't mean you should go about with the smiley grin (as that is not normal and it might get you checked in a mental facility)
but 'try to be that jolly good fellow' is what i preach,

Bad things happen, but its a win/win if you start believing good things can come out of negative situations... all starts with the mind.

THE GOOD WIFE

You see what you want to see, and honestly she doesnt really care what you assume.

you see an evil man...
i see a good wife standing beside that man.
he has his demons, oh yes! he does.
doesn't stop her from loving her man and chastising him the best way she knows how.

you the observer, watching from a distance cant see progress as much as you'll like.
he is condemed in your sight, and every now and then you wonder why..:s
why a good woman (beauty) would give her heart to a 'BAD,BAD' man (the beast).

love is the strongest force i have known.
it can make you compromise, not necessarily your soul
but it'll make a sane woman look foolish
it'll allow kindness be misinterpreted for stupid.

everyday she watches her mans wall crash
everyday some victory you know nothing of occurs.
you see a wolf, she sees a scared dog getting tamed.
love is all the definitions including;stupid

when you throw stones at him and call him names
she'll stick closer to him.
rather be down with the man of her dreams,
than be up, yet feel lonely in a world full of familiar faces.

love is blind and blind love is dangerous.
her love for her man is not dangerous
he respects her but terrorisies you.lol
he knows a good woman prays each day for his soul.

i know this woman, i love this woman.
i wrote this while trying to figure out why 'BAD BAD' men survive.
and i realised for some, some loved one keeps praying.....



. . . A Word of PRAYER changes EVERYTHING . . . #TYGA

the love of a father.

The love of a father is UNCONDITIONAL.

my father should care if im on Track or Not... but for however long it takes me to get on track..., not for one second should i doubt that my dad loves me.

i met a father, who lost his son. 2 days after the death, he's words to me were " God is love, if God took my son, its was in love...in love of me (his dad), in love of him (son), and in love of you (karen) and any other person who cared.
I love his perspective of Fatherhood...he looked to his God as his father.

Children are gifts from God
fathers should never stop loving their kids (showing it)
its a life long responsibility.
Unloving fathers create unloving kids,
who become unloving friends, unloving husbands and probably bring forth their kind of offspring.
rollercoaster ride .....where is the change in that????

if your earthly father wont love you enough (they are not perfect).
then yours God should love you as a father.

HAPPY FATHERS DAY.

i probably dont say it enough..im blessed with a dad , col gi Ayuba i love you dad.

My Robot Heart

Withheld truth Vs Lie / Withheld truth = Lie.

There's always two sides to a story,
The side the people believe,And the side we refer to as "The lie".
Whether or not the side the people believe, is the truth...
that side would survive (win) the test of time.

let's say the side the people believe is but indeed "the actual lie"
The truth would tarry.
For how long it would tarry, no one knws.
But surely someday the truth would surface.
Whether we live to see it or not.

That's a point!..but that's not the point I'm tryn to make.
These is the point I'm trying to make:
Do we know how many lies we've believed,simply by believing the leading stories?

If I had enough money,
I could pay every necessary publisher, radio/tv station to broadcast my lie .
"make the people believe".
the only dude with the truth might not be able to do much with the necessary channels,
and perhaps "the lie" doesn't affect him in any way(or so he thinks).
So d truth stays with this man, till he sees reason to give "the truth" to the right ear.
FYI :-other scenarios can play.

When there are no facts,Then Its just a story!
Not necessarily the truth.

I need an answer to these question.
Question: if I withhold the truth, should I be considered a liar or mute?
If no, when am I allowed to withhold the truth?

*these are honest questions, I need answers* thanks in advance :).

WHAT I DIDN'T SAY;

you cant change a man/woman,
but every being is subject to change.
that's the only constant thing in life.
once upon a time you didn't know how to say 'A' and now you can scream 'A,B,C,D.....1,2,3, ..K,A,R,E,N',
and there was a time you didn't even know you crawled... and now you see pictures from your past that prove to you, you weren't always a giant and on your 2 feet, in fact you were on your knees.

It is in every individual the power to change. however, the will to change is not in every.If you hate change,you hate growth.
i said you cant change a man/woman.
what i didn't say is "you cant be the reason for change".
so when people claim "people don't change"<-----where is this coming from????????" if you have all the time in the world;please, by all means be a reason for change! if you want to change them for good, its harder than if you want to change them for bad. but bottom line is when a 'good girl goes bad'... most times, its just because its that easy!
its harder to make a bad boy turn good.

have a lovely day.